I’ve just changed his diaper again for a countless time, and I look up to meet his gaze. He sees me, he sees me! It’s been days and weeks of watching him sweetly drift in and out of sleep. I have offered open, all-nighters at the milk bar located above my midriff. Nestled in my carrier, he comes with me wherever I go. I sing along with the love-songs crooning in the grocery store, but to him, to this tiny bundle I call mine, I have sung hymns and spiritual songs alike over the past weeks, and seen only the reflex expected of newborn intuition. But this time he gazes knowingly, awakened to my voice. I tear up and begin a simple tune yet again. He engages, he smiles, and I melt.
He isn’t but seven weeks old and now this give-a-thon has brought about the awaited love exchange. I am flooded with emotion and my soul cries out in gratitude to God for this grace—this call to motherhood. How meaningful the long nights and slow days resonate as I experience my baby engaging in the love I have been pouring out for him. What a grace to be drawn in like this.
I think of how the Holy Trinity is relational to the very core. There is a radiant exchange between the persons of the Godhead, and you and I have been invited in. “For God . . . is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ” (2 Cor 4:6). The love between the Father and Jesus is exchanged continually, becoming the very embodiment of the presence of the Holy Spirit. I recall the day I recognized the face of Jesus for the first time, realizing his love that had always been present awakening in me an exchange that led to a life of faith. I remember the song sung over me that day. Now, here in my ordinary life as a mother, I touch the radiance of saving truth—love is here “being manifested . . . with the Spirit of the living God . . . on human hearts” (2 Cor 3:3). Here in my long nights and slow days, here in my simple ways of caring (and singing), I am called to be an image-bearer of divine love. The light of glory is here because God ordained love to be what awakens souls.
So beautiful Jolly
Thank you for sharing the AWE of the newborn gaze, the back-and-forth between mother and child… recognizing LOVE is here!
My heart melts, Jolly! Give the Little Guy a kiss from me! 😘
This is beautiful 🙏🏻
What an incredible moment in your life and his!! He now “sees” his momma; he knows his momma and his momma knows he knows! Praise Abba for the moment if this live exchange! I am so so happy for you!
Thank you Mamas for sharing in this JOY with me – awakening to more of God’s love…present right in our midst!