Look Up

Karen Hebert // Tales From the Trenches


May 1  

Many years ago I was going through a particularly difficult season of life. I was overwhelmed, exhausted, discouraged, and probably depressed.

I remember thinking, “This is too much for me. Jesus, why don’t you just come and sort the world out? Sort me out?” 

And then I thought, “Lord, would I even know you if you came?” 

Right away, the Holy Spirit gave me an image. It was a picture of myself standing at the kitchen sink. I was looking down at the sink, intently focused and working hard. I was scrubbing and scrubbing and scrubbing with all my energy.

All of a sudden, I felt a tap on my right shoulder. When I turned to look, there was no one there. Again, I felt a tap on my right shoulder, and there was no one there. I spun around and looked over my left shoulder, and there was Jesus grinning and laughing with joy. “Gotcha!” 

The childlike silliness shocked me out of my over-seriousness, and I happily took Jesus’ hand and danced with him into the age to come. 

The meaning I took from the image was this: of course I would know Jesus when he comes. Of course I couldn’t “miss him.” Because I know him, and he knows me. I know the voice of the true shepherd. And he knows his sheep.

But I can work so hard at serving him, at serving those around me, at feeling responsible for all that goes wrong in my life and my family, that I forget to look up. 

I miss the joy of the Lord. I miss his playfulness, his care, and the delight he takes in me. 

I miss his constant reminder: “Karen, I’ve got this. I’ve got your kids, I’ve got your marriage, I’ve got all that worries you. I’ve got you. All will be well.” 

To see him, all I need to do is look up.

Much of what I am pouring my energy into is unnecessary. Much of what I try to control is not mine to control. My main “job,” in fact, is simply to look up and know the Lord’s joy. 

My friends, Easter is here. 

Resurrection is here. 

Jesus is here. 

The kingdom is all around us. 

The joy of the Lord is hovering over our shoulders. 

All we need to do is look up.

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  • I love your message! I feel the same way, and have had the Lord share with me the same idea! I miss him only because I get too focused on controlling outcomes that are really his to control. Thank you! I love “Gotcha!”

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